When it is lonely and you are frustrated with life, music does not sound good anymore. Life was not like this before. Something changed in the world after 2016, and it changed even more dramatically after 2020. Life was always meant to be lived in pleasure. Life was always meant to be lived with purpose. But nowadays everything, especially music, has lost its taste. The rhythm does not touch the heart like it once did, and the lyrics do not feel like they carry meaning anymore. It is as if the soul of music has disappeared.
I look outside the window and it is not the same anymore. All I see is bleakness. Maybe it is life or maybe it is karma. I cannot listen to any song. I cannot enjoy any song. There are some days when I can enjoy something, but it quickly vanishes. The joy is no longer there. It comes and goes like a shadow, never staying long enough to bring comfort. That feeling of being lifted by a melody or carried away by a beat has faded.
I miss the feeling of the 90s. I miss how everything used to feel so fresh. Even the sky looked different. The people were different. The air itself felt lighter and full of promise. I guarantee it is not only me who notices that nowadays people are only focused on money. “Money, money, money. Money, money, money.” People have become so materialistic that they have forgotten the true value and essence of life. Back then there was a kind of innocence, a sense of living for moments instead of possessions. Now it is as if everyone is chasing something empty.
Not only music, but the foundation on which society was built has fallen apart. Can you remember the last time you felt ecstatic, like in the 90s, when you were at a party and the rhythm of the music beat with you, and you looked at someone as if it were a new kiss? Life felt amazing back then. Everything seemed alive. Even a simple gathering with friends felt magical, as though the world itself was more connected. Now everything feels divided, broken, and heavy.
People say, “You are getting older, so you cannot enjoy music anymore.” But in the past, people in their 50s or 60s would speak differently. They seemed to enjoy life as much as teenagers, as much as everyone else. Somehow things have changed. Now there are no deeper conversations anymore. People sit together but their minds are elsewhere. Phones and screens have replaced genuine talks, and hearts do not open like they used to.
Sometimes I wonder if it is really age, or if the world has truly shifted into something darker. Maybe both are true. But I know the spark that once made life shine is gone. And I keep asking myself, will it ever return, or has it been lost forever..
